So, you know how I said that life was getting back to normal? Turns out that only lasted 48 hours. Today was one of the most stressful days I've had in weeks! It started this morning when I turned in to the parking lot of my brother's school.--
The school had this marvelous idea that they were going to block the entry way to the school. What a swell idea, guys. There I was, turning left into what I thought was a completely vacant road when BAM! orange cones exploded! (I didn't exactly run the orange cones over...but it was a scary ordeal.) I couldn't back out of this predicament. literally. I have Tedd move the cones so I can get through, and we safely make it into a parking space.
I park, Tedd walks away, and I prepare to leave. I put the car in reverse...nope...reverse...nope... C'mon Louis! (Louis is the name of my car)... Louis didn't want to go in reverse. I turned him off, then on again, then put him in reverse...reverse. Nope. Ohhhhh noooo. My car is broken. I called Tedd to come back and help me get Louis to go backwards, but he can't get him to go either.
Now, there's something you have to understand. I'm supposed to babysit this morning at 8:20! It's 8:12! and it takes 10 minutes to get there! I called the kids' mom to let her know that I was going to be late if I got there at all. I call my dad, but he doesn't answer his phone, I call my mom, and she doesn't answer her phone either. Great. I'm stuck. But wait! Tedd got Louis to work!!! Yay! I hurriedly call the kids' mom again to let her know I'm on my way, then make the what would have been 10 minute trip a 5 minute rush. I got there on time. Phew!
The next 2 hours of the morning go splendidly. I help the young kids with school, and have a generally good time. Then around 10, we set off to piano lessons. I get a little lost, but I get there on time, sort of. Then I take the boys to a local coffee shop to wait for the girls at their piano lesson. We have 45 minutes. Okay. I can do this. This is my kind of place, this coffee shop. There's a hipster in the corner and good music is playing. Relax. Drink coffee.
The 45 minutes pass unexpectedly quick, and we're back in the car sooner than I'd like to be. It's now 11:15. I turn on the car, ask if everyone is buckled, then put the car in...reverse...reverse. LOUIS NO! I try to keep calm and tell the kids that my car is temporarily disabled. Then I call my dad, who tries his very best to walk me through some things to try to get Louis started. Nothing is working, and the girls are waiting at piano lessons for me to pick them up! I nearly have a heart attack, but resort to an emotional breakdown instead. Since I can't get Louis to work, I call the kids' mom to ask if there was any possible way that she could come and pick us up, which, thankfully, she could. She came over, and took the oldest, Mollie, and I to the college. By this time, 11:55, I'm doing all I can not to cry because all of this was very stressful for me. I can handle one mishap with the car...but two? When I'm supposed to be babysitting? It's not okay for me. I felt sick.
12:00. I walk into the school, hoping desperately that there would be someone there who I could talk things out with. Which, there kind of was. My friend Kaely was there, so I went and sat with her--unfortunately, she had to go get something out of somebody's car, so she left me with my new buddy, Nick. What's that? Yes. I did make a new friend. Who says I'm too introverted to make friends? I can talk to people. When I feel like it.
An hour passed, and I still feel sick. The chips that Tedd got me from the college café do not look appetizing at all...so I give them to Sheree. Paul gets out of class and says he can take me home, because I'm in no state to go to class. Haha!
The rest of the day went pretty well, but I still felt sick, and I was about to take a nap when my Mom called me and told me that I needed to take my grandma back to her house so I cold have the car tomorrow for work. I guess a nap is now out of the question =P
...I guess the point that I'm leading up to is, don't ever think that you have life figured out. I didn't see this emotional day coming, (but the water-proof mascara was a lifesaver). Life is unpredictable. I may have overreacted a bit, but it only proves my point even more. I thought today was going to be normal and boring. I didn't put a positive attitude on, because I honestly thought I wouldn't need it. If I would have thought about the positive things that were happening throughout the day, I wouldn't be so upset about the negative.
One of the kids I was babysitting today said his memory verse to me- 1 Peter 5:7. Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. I had a lot of anxiety today, but I didn't even think of giving it to God because I wanted to wallow in self pity instead looking for joy and peace in Him. Sometimes we don't even realize what we're holding back for ourselves until we look back at it. I know anxiety isn't something that we would normally want to hold on to, but doesn't it get us attention sometimes? We strive for attention because we need it. It's natural. But, especially in my case, I tend to turn a negative experience into my own personal pity party. I get really sarcastic and try to get people to feel sorry for me. But, guys, we have all the attention we could ever hope for in God. He cares for YOU. Shouldn't that be enough?
Be Bold. Be Blessed. Be Bodacious.
~Ana
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